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i’ve been feeling a little bit overwhelmed,

i’ve been a little too wrapped up in myself,

so many things to cloud my mind,

i need to leave them all behind,

and think about a place and time

beyond this life–

won’t that be fine

oh when the sun always shines

nothing but love all the time

oh won’t that be fine

i love to get caught up in this daydream,

i smile to think about all that i’ll see,

and any need i’ve ever had,

any question that i want to ask,

won’t even matter-

gone with the past

won’t that be fine

oh when the sun always shines

nothing but love all the time

oh won’t that be fine

and won’t that be fine

when everything wrong will be right

and when we will walk in the light

won’t that be fine

Most of the time I know I’m fine. I know who I am and what I want. I feel like the whole universe works with me to reach for what I really want to do and be. I know I’m okay and secure. But things happen. Unexpected things that suddenly blow up in my face. That’s when I come to realize how proud and lazy I’ve become. I come to see how one lousy, lazily-made decision could lead to the next and to the next and to the next. I fall flat on my face. I cry out my eyes and search deeper, look up higher, long for something better. I try to make up for the lost by spending my time with beings that somehow zap the life out of me. Words that are not backed by a godly life can accumulate like poison in the soul. Words are not mere words. Living thoughtlessly can bring so much trouble. A showy and pretentious life is an empty life. A simple life is a full life. I want a simple life. I don’t want clutter. But sometimes I just can’t let go of it all. I just can’t. I was just never given the chance to. I really was given the chance, but I passed up. However, I love that decision. I’ll always be proud of that decision. But I also long for somethings to come. It kept me holding on, and I know I must let go completely. Totally abandon everything. The road to life is narrow and vigorous. It requires total attention. I need as few distractions as possible. I just have to keep singing, that’s the only way I’ll find healing.